I notice everything. And by everything, I literally mean everything. I notice when someone stops hitting me up like they used to. I notice when the way someone talks to me starts changing. I notice the little things that people do, and the little things they used to do. I notice when things change, and when it’s no longer the same. I notice every single little detail. I just don’t say anything.
Every time Brendon talks about Spencer I am simultaneously so moved and so heartbroken. The whole situation is so difficult, and it seems really clear to me that it’s taking a toll on Brendon (he CRIED trying to sing ‘if you love me let me go,’ I can’t even handle that). I love the album, but its very bittersweet that Spencer wasn’t very involved in the production and may not end up touring for it at all. I don’t know, I’m just really sad about it.